Tears

It's Monday!  Appropriate enough for tears most weeks, right?! 

This Monday though I am a bit emotional for reasons other than it being the start of another busy week or the "let down" day after a day filled with ministry.  The last two weekends were wonderfully filled with family.  First my in-laws came out to help celebrate Alex's birthday. Then this past weekend my sister's family and my mom came out for a quick trip before it gets even more uncomfortable for my sister to travel (she's very pregnant).

This week is also the LCS Sport's Banquet. This means the end of soccer is wrapping up as well. We actually play again this week in district playoffs.  While this season has been a great one and I have loved it, I must admit I am tired.  I also must admit that I miss being home with my family, even doing the basic household chores that I used to do regularly.

Today is also a day in which I am feeling saddened by the sicknesses of those close to us. Cancer is such a difficult journey and to watch family and friends fight this disease is heartbreaking. Today my heart is heavy and as I find myself in prayer for these loved ones it just feels desperate.

On top of tough emotional issues there are everyday life issues to be dealt with, such as the growing and training of our children. WOW! I have to tell you that in the past week it has been a bit shocking to see how quickly my children are drawn into bad behaviors.  From mouthy responses, bad attitudes, bickering, and demeaning names from the boys to "like...um...like" from my FOUR YEAR OLD daughter!!!!  And don't even get me started on disrespect and ungratefulness.  UGH!

Plus I am in ministry. And this season of ministry has been tough. But there is also great reward so I keep pressing on.  But Monday's are often a slow start. And some Monday's I just want to crawl back into bed for awhile, or all day.

And as I sit here re-reading what I just typed and "hear" myself I am reminded again, it all has to do with perspective. Depending on whether I choose to look at all of the things in my life through my temporal, nearsighted perspective or in light of God and His eternal glory I can find myself viewing things very differently.  So I am going to spend my Monday (and hopefully beyond) continuing to recognize the realities of what I am feeling, but prayerfully seek to have a perspective of joy and thankfulness for the blessings I have been given.