Emma the little Diva

Enjoy this video and some pictures of our little diva.

She is counting in this video, but then becomes distracted by the camera, she finishes by saying "Emma beautiful." I hope that she never forgets that she is beautiful.

Emma loves shoes and last week was given some clothes from a friend. Included were new boots, which she did not take off all morning.

Emma was all dressed up and ready to go. She picked out her shoes and jewelry for the day. She is quite the little diva. She loves to "ham it up" for the camera and then loves to see herself on my camera display.

A Fresh Perspective

A week has gone by since my last post. While not a lot has changed in my situation and there are even more unanswered questions, God is still working. (Of course He is, He never stopped!)


Last night, I had the night off and was able to make dinner (a simple pleasure) and hang out with my kids. I sat on the couch with Emma and Alex, watching them interact and play. Emma is rapidly expanding her vocabulary and has become a bit bossy, but to watch her was such a gift. I got to read some books with Jackson. First grade causes so many changes, he is learning to read and it is fun to watch him grow. Stephen just adds drama to everything and his smile is such a reward.


I also had the opportunity to go over to church for prayer and it was an amazing hour of sitting in God's presence. While I poured out my heart to God, He reminded me of His presence and patience. I did not receive any answers but His peace was a gift.


The best part of the evening was putting the kids to bed, reading "Goodnight Moon" to Emma and "vegging" with my husband.

Ok so moments after I originally posted this message, my phone rang. I have a new job. Acutally it is my old job, but since it hasn't been mine for the past 2 years, I suppose it is new again. There are many details that still need to be worked out, childcare, other jobs, etc...but I do know this step is the best for my family. I will actually get to see all of my kids every day. God's timing and His work in our lives is always perfect. He has proven this time and time again, and yet I fail to remember and cling to that in the midst of my problems. Maybe it sank in a little more this time around. :-)

Surrender and Silence

Depressed stressed anxious

confused frustrated

scared lonely

All of these words are words I could use to describe parts of my life lately. And as I talk with other women and moms they too can "feel my pain." Why? Most, if not all of us would quickly admit to being extremely blessed and loved, not only by others but ultimately by God.

Is God asking me to wait (which is so very hard to do) or am I missing God?

Is He answering my cries with answers I don't want to hear or am I asking the wrong questions?

I don't know, probably for each of us the answer could vary. But God has never been anything other than faithful, so that leaves the problem at my doorstep. What do I do with that revelation? I think it begins with surrender and silence. Surrender to ask God to do His will-not mine-and silence to listen and KNOW He is God.

Jackson Dean

My Jack is turning 7. How can this be?

I have been so blessed to watch this little boy grow. He has been created by God to be an amazing little man. The years have flown by and I am sure they will continue to do so.

Jackson gives amazing hugs. He has a brilliant smile. He is smart. He is loving. He loves God's creation. He has an adventurous spirit. Jackson loves music. He loves to pray. He loves to learn new things. He is messy, but creative. He loves to draw pictures and write stories. He is funny. He loves his family.

I could go on and on. Jackson is not perfect, but he fits perfectly in our family and is such a blessing. I pray that he grows up to be a man after God's own heart.